When a writer cant write, another art form satisfies the creative itch – The Irish Times

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To the left of my desk is a full-length window, with a partial view of the copper spire of Holy Cross Church, Kenmare, and Ballygriffin townland; behind it is the hazy outline of Mucksna mountain, part blue, part purple-yellow with its flecks of gorse and heather. A dusty, late afternoon sky is smudged with the occasional cream or lilac cloud.

My desk faces away from this view; it looks at a plain cream wall. This is the way I best focus my mind. Its baffling how much the brain wants to be creative everyone has that one novel they want to write but when it comes to the actual business of doing it, the mind will go to extremes to distract itself from the task, and that includes gazing at a beautiful view.

I was never one of those students who could study in the garden. Id simply sink into idleness. Really, if you can learn to be idle and not be riddled with guilt listen to a robin in a nearby bush, smell honeysuckle, watch the light glisten on open water its one of the most pleasant sensations you can experience. But then, of course, the end result is youve done absolutely nothing.

Today, Im on day eight of the Corvid-19 lockdown. On the desk sit proofs of the new Roddy Doyle novel, Love, and Tennis Lessons by Susannah Dickey. Ive a diary open with a to-do list mostly scratched out. There are some items still pending: Joe Wicks high-intensity interval training YouTube workout (likely postponed again), an art essay (it has been pushed to the following day, each day this week, till now), and floss (something I put have on my daily to-do list, as its the only way I can be sure Ill actually do it).

Youd think for an introverted writer type, being locked up in the countryside for anything from a few weeks to many months, would hold out the opportunity to dive into a large creative endeavour; that for my personality and occupation, itd be quite easy to turn these Corvid-19 lemons into lemonade. The reality is, over the past eight days, I have found it near impossible to read for more than 15 minutes at a time and my writing has gone to hell.

Id been mid-way through two brilliant books as this crisis hit: Okay, Lets Do Your Stupid Idea by Patrick Freyne (full of warmth and wit), and The School of Life by Alain De Botton (compassionate and wise), but since lockdown, Ive made little headway. I keep rereading the same handful of pages because nothing sticks.

I was asked to read for a new online literary series, The Holding Cell, and as I prepared my reading, I likewise found it impossible to even find the flow in my own story, one that I worked on for over five years.

For me, creativity comes when I get out of the way of whatever the impulse is; I feel like a vessel through which ideas are channelled. Its such a curious thing, this muse. Do I write my own stories at all? Sometimes, when Im writing, my protagonist does or says something that surprises me. How is that even possible when its come from my own brain? The easiest comparison I can make to this experience is falling asleep let it happen, and it happens, but if you try to force it, youre a lost cause.

This week I cant get out of the way. The dialogue about coronavirus echoes on in my head: Italian death counts, hand washing, British prime minister Boris Johnson and the women on The View eviscerating US president Donald Trump. All these opinions, more and more ideas and words . . . my head is too cluttered with them to come up with a few new ones.

But, in the absence of words, a different creativity has emerged.

Something fortuitous happened in the new year. Outside my Dublin apartment there is a shared recycling outhouse, where residents separate out bottles, plastic and general waste, and occasionally people leave things that they dont want to throw away, mostly books and small electronics. After Christmas, someone left an unopened painting kit, a small easel and a canvas. I took the set and its been sitting in my car boot since then.

Until last week, Id forgotten about it. Yet, after staring at my laptop with my cluttered brain, I remembered the paints and canvas in the boot. Serendipity, it appeared.

So for the past few days, in the tangle of tweets, posts and articles, Ive been painting a landscape from Reenagross Park in Kenmare, where a small stream snakes through meadow and gorse out to the Kenmare estuary. In a time when Ive lost my ability to compose fiction, Ive found the calm, mental space that is creativity. Is the painting a work of any real merit? Probably not. Im what my old school art teacher wouldve called a Sunday afternoon painter, a reasonable hobbyist, though I guess thats not the point.

Im not alone in this. In a group chat on WhatsApp, Ive discovered my closest friends (now scattered and closed-in around Europe) likewise turning to art in whatever way they can. One friend in a locked-down Paris sent a video of her French husband playing the accordion on their Montmartre balcony at dusk, to which those in invisible apartments up the street cheer; another friend (who Ive only ever known as a suited barrister) sent a video of him playing Beethovens Moonlight Sonata on the piano perfectly. One of my work colleagues, in a Zoom call, showed a completed cross stitch (now auctioned on Twitter for charity); another confessed to creating pottery.

Im glad Ive found some way to be creative, a way to remain calm in the chaos. Im glad my friends and colleagues have too. Im reminded of a quote by George Bernard Shaw: Without art, the crudeness of reality would make the world unbearable. At this moment in time, it feels more true than ever.

Jamie OConnell works for Penguin Random House Ireland and writes short stories, one of which was Highly Commended in the Costa Short Story Prize last year. He is working on his debut novel. His website is jamieoconnellwriter.com

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